亲爱的朋友们……今天我的母亲庆贺她八十九岁的生日。因为你们大家都是仁慈的奉献者，我可以卑微地请求你们向施瑞 施瑞 茹阿戴和奎师那祈祷，赐福我的母亲神圣的奉爱以及因对祂们的服务而得到的安宁。她是一位优秀的女子，把我带到了这个世界上，扶养并保护着我，总是支持着我的奎师那意识知觉自从我加入的那一天。请为她祈祷。她热爱奉献者并且每天为我们大家祈祷。谢谢你们……哈瑞 奎师那！！
在卡尔提克 普尔尼玛下和给瑞茹阿佳·斯瓦米进行夜晚的温达文绕拜。22:25离开家，00:40返回，如此美好深刻的印象，圣名自由地奔流，通向奎师那的道路敞开了。佳呀 佳呀 茹阿戴 佳呀 佳呀 夏玛 佳呀 佳呀 施瑞 温达文 达玛……帕瓦纳 茹阿达 太柔 纳玛 帕瓦纳 施瑞 温达文 达玛。在施瑞 温达文 达玛祝大家晚安。凌晨04:26……在凉爽的温达文夜晚，听不见一点儿声音。
哈瑞 奎师那！！在卡尔提克 普尼玛绕拜之后的早晨，我们九点钟从温达文开车出发去德里，同行的有玛达瓦，茹阿迪卡，夏玛，维佳亚，丹尼斯，斯外塔和他们的孩子们，我们乘飞机去德拉顿。沿着45分钟开车去瑞希凯施的公路，有标牌警告要远离晚间经常在公路上逗留的野生大象。我们遇见一大队从哈萨克斯坦来的奉献者并且去了帕尔特玛塔 尼克坦 刚嘎 阿尔提。星期五早上我们沿着恒河进行了二小时的步行佳帕，然后坐在嘎特的小船旁边唱颂了四个小时的哈瑞奎师那。迅速地奔向美丽的恒河沙滩，浸入寒冷的水中，然后返回进行从17:30分到20:00第二阶段的克依尔坦。我们沐浴在哈瑞纳玛曼陀和恒河女神自由奔流的仁慈海洋之中。今天早晨的步行佳帕结束了……现在，离开嘎特去唱颂更多的克依尔坦。
昨天我们完成了早晨的散步佳帕然后返回恒河边的台阶进行另外六个小时的克依尔坦。玛达瓦和阿肯查纳·奎师那帕布唱得很优美。克依尔坦以玛达瓦歌唱一首非常时髦的瑞格舞节拍旋律的曲子结束（西印度洋群岛一种节奏强劲的流行音乐）而且整个嘎特都在跳舞。今天早上我们在恒河边佳帕散步，但感觉伤感因为玛达瓦和茹阿迪卡要离开去赴他们的下一个约会……在美国。他们的联谊鼓舞人心……还有许多乐趣。今天我们组每一个成员要找到他们自己在恒河玛塔岸边的地点并坐下来整天佳帕。我们都希望唱颂六十四圈玛哈曼陀并祈求刚嘎戴薇的仁慈。刚嘎戴薇 克依 佳呀！！哈瑞纳玛 桑克依尔坦 克依 佳呀！！
被庆祝主希瓦曼格拉-阿尔提敲锣打鼓的喧闹声唤醒。昨天的佳帕旅行很棒，恒河母亲令人放心而安慰。在她的岸边一个僻静之地，我为所有的朋友们向她祈求，希望她不久将给予答复。许多瑞希凯施的瑜伽朋友们加入昨天晚上的克依尔坦。维施努熟练地打鼓，阿肯查纳唱得像一位来自哥楼卡的天使。我们要在七点钟离开戴瓦-帕亚格返回到瓦希斯塔圣人的洞前，一个完美的冥想和深情祈祷之地。佳呀 刚嘎 玛塔 克依 佳呀！！
开车去戴瓦-帕亚嘎，在巴给茹阿提和阿拉卡南达刚嘎的交汇处举行克依尔坦，做了一个非常特别的普佳，每一个人浸泡在寒冷纯净的恒河水中，开车去恒河边一棵榕树下的瓦希斯塔圣人的山洞。如果你曾经有一种心理概念，怎么一个瑜伽师的修院位于……这个地方，要经受住最美丽和风光明媚景色的挑战。洞在20米的地方已经被封锁，在那个地点有一盏燃烧的油灯和一个古老的希瓦林嘎。用控制住的心意感觉到伟大灵魂的临在，他们坐在那里冥想和塔帕夏（苦行）……用看不见的形式……一个年代又一个年代。当我们带着心意进入那个受控制的空间，它显示出有许多工作需要去完成。在离开瑞希凯施之前，今天早晨我们将返回坐在黑暗中唱颂和祈祷二个小时。瓦希斯塔·牟尼 克依 佳呀！！
今天早晨布茹阿佳的天气晴朗，有雾，十五度，我决定为给瑞茹阿佳做粗面粉哈拉瓦早餐。用黄油/印度酥油炒米，一份来自哈萨克斯坦奉献者卡尔提卡月的礼物，加一大把很小的褐色葡萄干，也是一份来自迪拜奉献者卡尔提卡月的礼物，准备了加有世界上最好的藏红花粉的热牛奶，也是一份来自伊朗奉献者卡尔提卡月的礼物。然后用苹果、香蕉、核桃仁和蜂蜜做的水果色拉和新鲜的压榨酸橙果汁，除了苹果、香蕉和酸橙以外，每一样都是卡尔提卡月的礼物。我想起1971年第一次为奎师那供奉，大概在巴拉茹阿玛的显现日，我们的庙长仓促地来到我面前要求我准备下午的水果供奉。因此我迅速地沐浴，穿上干净的衣服，画提拉克，跑到厨房，准备了和今天早上同样简单的水果色拉。在1971年那盘水果色拉一定让我得到了很多仁慈。我希望今天早上的供奉也将吸引一些仁慈。我准备了给瑞茹阿佳的供盘，放上图拉西叶供奉。通常我念诵姆拉-曼陀供奉，但是自从我住在布茹阿佳，我供奉不但一直念诵姆拉-曼陀还念诵当我们是新奉献者时候念诵的祷文。当我念诵帕布帕德的顶拜祷文，玛哈帕布和奎师那的祷文时，我努力冥想帕布帕德、主柴坦亚和施瑞奎师那。这些曼陀听起来都如此美丽，译文令人陶醉而过程是如此简单。过了一会儿，我端走了供奉，洗盘子，叫夏玛和维佳亚荣耀帕萨达姆，他们宣称我早晨奉爱服务的结果是成功的。温达文是如此崇高，帕布帕德是如此崇高，奉献者们是如此崇高，这个过程是如此崇高。有时我能实际地领会到我已经成为幸运的灵魂，尽管我是最没有资格的。温达文 达玛 克依 佳呀！！另外……今天是悉塔戴薇和主茹阿玛结婚的日子。巴拉茹阿玛巴巴在他的桑特殖民地修院为1000名圣人提供食物，然后他在准备一个特别的悉塔茹阿玛婚宴大餐，他将在我们家的院子里做服务。佳呀 施瑞 悉塔 茹阿玛 维瓦哈 克依 佳呀！！
Dear Friends .. Today my mother celebrates her 89th birthday. As you are all merciful devotees may I humbly request you to say a prayer to Sri Sri Radha and Krishna to bless my mom with the divine love of bhakti and the peace which can be attained only by Their service. She is a wonderful person, brought me into this world, maintained and protected me, and has always supported my Krishna consciousness since the day I joined. Please keep her in your prayers .. she loves devotees and daily prays for us all. Thank you .. Hare Krishna !!
At 15:00, Shyam, Vrindavan Bihari, I noticed it was warm, now 16:47, evening cool has begun, many parrots chanting their last Kartik mantras, sounds of cracking tabla tals on a speaker system, horns squeaking in the background, kartals zinging, the parrot's mantras predominating, will visit the temple at 17:30 for kirtan, stay for the Domodarastakam, sing kirtan at home, and wish these days would never end. O Vrindavan, my home, the land I love, please let me serve you.
Night Vrindavan Parikrama beneath the Kartik Purnima with Giriraja Swami, left home at 22:25, returned at 00:40, such wonderful deep impressions, the names flowed freely and the path to Krishna was open. Jai Jai Radhe jai Jai Shyam Jai Jai Sri Vrindavan Dham .. Pavana Radha Tero Nama Pavana Sri Vrindavan Dham. Goodnight to all from Sri Vrindavan Dham. 04:26 ... Not a sound to be heard in the cool Vrindavan night
Hare Krishna !! The morning after our Kartik Purnima parikrama we departed Vrindavan at 09:00, drove to Delhi with Madhava, Radhika, Shyam, Vijay, Denis, Sweta, their kids and flew to Dehradun. Along the 45 minute drive to Rishikesh there were signs warning to stay clear from the wild elephants who frequent that road in the evening. We met a large group of devotees from Kazakhstan and went to Part...matha Niketan Ganga Arati. Friday morning we took a 2 hour japa walk along the Ganga and then sat near the boat ghat and sang Hare Krishna for 4 hours. Quickly jumped to a beautiful Ganga beach, had a cold dip, and returned for a second kirtan session from 17:30 till 20:00. We are bathing in harinamamrta, and Ganga Devi's free flowing mercy. This morning japa walk finished ... now, off the the ghat for more kirtan.
Yesterday we took morning japa walk and then returned to our Ganga ghat for another 6 hours of kirtan. Madhava and Akincana Krishna prabhus sang beautifully. Kirtan ended with Madhava singing a very funky reggae beat melody and the entire ghat was dancing. This morning we had a japa walk on the side of the Ganga, but are feeling sad as Madhava and Radhika will be leaving for their next engagement ...in America. Their association has been inspirational .. as well as .. a lot of fun. Today each of our group members will find their own spot on the side of Ganga Mata and sit in japa all day long. We all hope to chant 64 rounds of maha mantra and pray for the mercy of Ganga Devi. Ganga Devi Ki Jai !! Harinama Sankirtan Ki Jai !!
PS ... Finally found the time to shave off the Kartik whiske
Awoke to the sound of gongs and the roar of many din-din drums celebrating the mangala arati of Lord Siva. Yesterday's japa journey was wonderful, Mother Ganga was reassuring and very comforting. Made many appeals for all of my friends at a lonely spot on Her shore, hope She gives an answer soon. Many Rishikesh yoga friends joined kirtan last night, Visnu played the drum in perfect beat and Akincana sang like an angel from Goloka. We will leave at 07:00 for Deva Prayag and on return stop at the cave of Vasisth Muni, a perfect place for meditation and deep prayer. Jai Ganga Mata Ki Jai !!
Drove to Deva Prayag, had kirtan at the confluence of the Bhagirathi and Alakananda Gangas, performed a very special puja, everyone dipped in the freezing purifying waters, drove down to Vasistha Muni's cave on the side of the Ganga beneath a banyon tree. If you ever had a mental concept of how a yogi's asrama should be situated .. this place defies your most beautiful and scenic ideas. The cave h...as been blocked at 20 meters, at that point there is a single oil lamp wick burning and an ancient Siva Linga. The presence of great souls with controlled minds is felt there, as they have sat there in meditation and tapasya .. in unseen forms .. for ages and ages. When we bring our minds into that controlled atmosphere it shows that much work need be accomplished. We will go back and sit in the dark, chant, and pray, for 2 hours this morning before leaving Rishikesh. Vasiistha Muni Ki Jai !!
Good-bye holy Rishikesh, good-bye sacred Mother Ganga. On this trip You showed us a different side of your mercy, and for that we are very thankful, and hope to keep that mercy alive in the depths of our hearts.
08:52, such a dense fog that I cannot see Prabhupada's samadhi from my house, very cold, very wet, high note of voices, low note of mrdanga in kirtan from Balaram Baba's, soft background of non stop parrot chatter, a feathered kirtaneer continues to hit his high note in perfect intervals, the seven sisters continue babbling like local ladies during a class, a black singer with white cheeks sings ...high pitched ragas, monkeys sit outside my window clinging to one another in disbelief, yes, winter has arrived in Vrindavan, in Goloka the 6 seasons manifest simultaneously for the service of Sri Radhe as she serves Shyam, in the distance the testing of a loudspeaker horn sounds like the roaring of the Aristasura, such a thick fog, I will now walk around Vrindavan and softly chant, if I would chant purely, only once, Radhe Shyam would step out from the fog and accept me as Their servant, when, oh when, will that blessed day come?
Sitting at the desk at noon, gazing out the window, can barely see the top of Prabhupada's samadhi, the temple bell rings steadily calling devotees to the noon arati of Radhe Shyam, thick fog has made the walkway around the house wet as if it had rained, the bricks of my house have released their accumulated charge of summer warmth, inside and out a warm sweater is a must, two birds sit side by side, unmoving, silent, gazing into the distance like yogis in a devotional trance of love, the discussion of the parrots never stops, Vijay and Shyam are in Delhi, Vrindavan Bihari is in Bharatpur for a wedding, I am home, alone, relishing being on my own in this sacred land of Vraja. O Vrindavan, my home, the land I love, please let me serve you.
07:32 and reasonably clear. Today the dense fog has passed.
Many years ago I had the fortune to drive HH Satsvarupa Goswami from Delhi to Vrindavan on a foggy winter morning. As we drove in and out of the thick fog Maharaja sat chanting. At one point he smiled and said,
“Ah, yes, this is what it is like. When there is no fog we move very quickly, and when the fog is thick we slow down and it takes time to cross the smallest distance. The sun is shining above, but the fog blocks it’s warmth and light.
Now the fog of namaparadha and anartha is very thick. It covers our heart and the rays of pure harinama do not shine within. We cannot see, we move slowly, we feel the chill of uncertainty in our practice. When will we ever reach our goal?
But by sincere faithful chanting, rich with spiritual knowledge, the thick fog of anartha and aparadha will clear from our hearts. Then the brilliant spiritual rays of pure harinama will shine within, our souls will bathe in the warmth of spiritual joy, and our path back to God will be continually illuminated. In time we will reach the shore of the ocean of prema bhakti and bathe within.
Ayodhyapati, today, despite the fog, we must be determined to drive the road to Vrindavan. In the same way we must be determined to continue the road to Goloka Vrindavan by pure chanting of harinama. By suddha nama our hearts will be flooded with the Lord’s own spiritual potency, offence and anartha will fully cease, and we will gain the qualification to meet and serve Sri Krishna with love.”
Then he stopped speaking, closed his eyes, and continued to chant softly with clarity.
This morning it is a sunny, hazy, 15 degrees in Vraja and I decided to prepare semolina halva for Giriraja's breakfast. Roasted the grains in ghee, a kartik gift from Kazakh devotees, added a big handful of very small brown raisins, also a Kartik gift from Dubai devotees, prepared hot milk with the world's best saffron, also a Kartik gift from Irani devotees, and then prepared a fruit salad with a...pple, banana, walnut and honey, and the juice of a freshly squeezed lime. Everything except the apple, banana and lime were Kartik gifts as well. I remembered the first offering I ever made for Krishna. In 1971, around Balaram's appearance day, our temple president came to me in a panic and asked me to prepare the afternoon fruit offering. So I showered quickly, put clean clothes, tilak, ran to the kitchen, and prepared the same simple fruit salad I made this morning. In '71 that fruit salad must have garnered me a lot of mercy, I hope that this morning's offering will attract some grace as well. I prepared Giriraja's offering plate, placed Tulasi leaves, and offered. Generally I offer by chanting mula-mantras but since I have been in Vraja this visit I have been offering, not only with mula-mantras, but by chanting the offering prayers we learned when we were new devotees. As I chant Prabhupada's pranam, namo maha vadanyaya, and namo brahmanya devaya, I try to meditate on Prabhupada, Lord Caitanya, and Sri Krishna. The mantras all sound so beautiful, the translations are ecstatic, and the process is so simple. After some time I removed the offering, cleaned the plates, called Shyam and Vijay to honour prasadam and they declared my morning devotional efforts a success. Vrindavan is so sublime, Prabhupada is so sublime, devotees are so sublime, this process is so sublime. Sometimes I can actually understand that I have become the most fortunate soul, despite the fact that I am most unqualified. Vrindavan Dham Ki Jai !! PS ... Today is the wedding day of Sita Devi and Lord Rama. Balarama Baba will feed over 1,000 sadhus at his asrama in Sant Colony, and then he is preparing a special Sita Rama wedding feast that he will serve in the yard at our house. Jai Sri Sita Rama Vivaha Ki Jai !!